Clouds

I'd been slightly depressed for the past few days... Not been one of the best weeks ever, let's say.
Laurel and I are officially not best friends anymore, although neither of us will admit it to eachother. I've thought it and she said it to another friend who mentioned it to me. *sigh* I've never had a friendship fall apart so fast. Infact I've never had a friendship fall apart, ever. We were the best of friends two years ago and I really wish I knew what changed. Aparently we must have though or we'd still be best friends now. I don't regret knowing her though. I owe a lot to her because if I hadn't met her, I wouldn't know a lot of my friends that I have and I wouldn't even know any of you Camp Hopies.

Then besides that there have been a lot of small sad, bad or frustraiting things happening off and on. It's been cloudy a lot lately, so I guess that would be part of it because cloudy weather and rain tend to make me not as happy as usual. 'Cause it's so much darker. And I have another friend who suddenly seems to be avoiding me for some reason of which I do not know. It's very odd because just last week he was the same person who came and sat by me while us and the rest of the soup kitchen volunteers were eating dinner and now this week he barely is speaking to me.

But then this morning in the middle of school I suddenly felt lead to grab my Bible. So I got up from my computer (I'm home schooled, incase you didn't already know) and flipped to a random passage and ended up in Job chapters 26 and 27. It helped me to regain my optimistic attitude back...I realized things could be a whole lot worse than they are. In fact, I'm lucky to be alive. If God so chose, I could collapse dead this very minute and never finish this post. All kinds of horrible stuff happened to Job and he never lost faith in God. It was all a test. So, as I figure, God must be testing me too and I should count myself lucky that it's not as severe as the test he put Job through. I still have my house, my family, pets, all you great friends, and most importantly, God. We're all lucky that He's kept us alive one more day, so we shouldn't waste our breath complaining about it.