Thursday, January 14, 2010

I just wish that I could dissapear//someone take me far away from here

First off, thanks people for commenting on my last post- it makes me glad to know I at least have two people who check my blog :)

Well what a week. What a first few weeks of 2010, for that matter. It's amazing what a range of feeling one can experience in a short amount of time. Currently I feel horrible. I got in trouble with mom earlier for the first time in ages and now I have a headache and a sore throat that has been ever-increasing all evening. *sigh*

I suppose I could save myself a lot of trouble sometimes if I was better at talking to my parents about stuff. Ugh. Why does it have to be so freaking hard sometimes? In a sense it would be easier to just tell them, yet the actually telling them part is something that freaks me out so much I could practically throw up. And I'm not even particularly sure why. But talking to parents about relationships is scary...anybody with me on this one? And yes, incase you're guessing, they know nothing of what's been going on between David and I the past month (and if you don't know what the heck I'm talking about, read the comments on the post below this). It's not even like there is anything bad that has happened with him and I that I'm trying to hide, either. It's just the very fact of admitting that yes, he and I like eachother that intimidates me. I don't like talking relationship stuff with them, even though it's probably what should be done. I suppose I'm just affraid what they'll say or do... there's always this fear in the back of my mind that if I tell them they'll not let the two of us hang out any more =/ Maybe it's irrational. I don't know. But I don't particularly want to test the theory just incase it does happen....ergh. life.

On the up side of stuff, until today things have been awesome. My birthday has lasted for like a whole week this year and that is totally great =D Like seriously, I started getting gifts and bday wishes from people since 2 days before my birthday and then I've had a tricling of birthday cards and belated wishes and presents from then until this past Tuesday. Oh man I have amazing friends! Despite not having had a party like I did on my sweet 16, it's been a very special birthday none the less :)

Anywho, our computer is going to kick me off soon.... now to go sweat it through our evening family time devotions. Because if mom is going to grill me, it will be right after devotions while her, dad, and I are all together. Cause thats when all the serious subjects come up *shudders*

4 comments:

Katie said...

Talking to parents is really hard, I agree. It seems like they don't remember when they were kids. I'll pray for you.

And yes, I will always check this blog.

Sarah said...

Yeah no kidding. But I'm happy that in the end it all worked out ok :)

Katie said...

I am glad for you :D

Stephanie DeFoyd said...

oh, i definitely know how you felt! i've been in a similar situation...not quite like your's, but close enough...glad it turned out okay!